why did you ghost me?
I’m talking to you
Why did you ghost me?
Why did you wait for me to spill my feelings out for you to leave me?
Why the fuck did you not leave me alone?
I did not even know you existed
But there you went strolling into my life
I never asked for it
Honestly, I never asked for none of it
But I thought you were different
I didn’t think you would do me like that
Like what huh?
Yeah of course you would ask that
Of course, you’ll play dumb and innocent
Its all my fault, right?
I thought too much of it right?
It was never like that right?
I should have seen it coming right?
It was all fun right?
Fun for who?
I sure did not have any fun
All I had was someone tell me everything I ever wanted to hear
It was all good though
you played it well
You learned the game well
The game comes easy to you
You are very efficient at it
You’re like Kobe in the fourth quarter -clutch
But I lied
I did have fun
When I thought it was real
I thought all of it was real
I thought it was going somewhere
But shit, you sure do switch up fast
When the heat got turned on
You ran out of the kitchen
Except you forget
you lit the match
You created the narrative
Remember all those sunsets we watched together
Remember all those walks on the beach
Remember the new places we discovered
Remember how your eyes use to penetrate me
Remember how weak you made me when you touched me
Remember all those secrets you told me
Remember the things we confessed to each other
So, I apologize for taking it too far
Is that what you want to hear?
What exactly did you want?
You probably don’t even know
I know what I wanted
I wanted you
The you, you showed me the first time
Not this new you
This new you
This new you broke me
Faster than a bullet
This new you chopped my knees and let me fall
I never saw it coming
Was I stupid, naïve or immature?
Did you and your friends have a good laugh about me?
Did you celebrate at how well you played me?
I hope you told them how well you lied to me
You used to say you couldn’t wait to hold me
Now you ignore me
You couldn’t wait to text me
Now you duck your head when you see me
I hope you got everything you wanted
I hope it was all worth it
You gave me a painful lesson to learn
I’m not too proud to say I begged
I begged for your attention
You had me in the palm of your hands
Did you feel guilty?
Is that why you ghosted me?
Is that why you went silent on me?
I thought about deleting your number
I can’t do it
I’m trying to build a backbone
I want to feel the pain of seeing your number everyday
I want to have the urge to call you
I want to find the strength to not call you
I want to be in control
I’m still here picking myself up from the floor
My broken pieces are all over the place
I will pick them up
In due time
I’m on the floor wondering
Why did you do me like that?